Some days, I break.

Today has been a rollercoaster, to put it lightly.  My hormones are all over the place, which means I didn't sleep very well at all - and it didn't help that my husband had the alarm set for 2:30 in the morning when he didn't have to be at work until 6!  Of course, he turns it off, rolls over, and goes right back to sleep.  Not the case for me, unfortunately.  So then I'm up every hour and super uncomfortable!  At least I didn't have to be at work until 8:30 this morning, which helped (a little).

On my way to work, I thought I was going to cause a serious accident.  Every time I stepped on the breaks, the car loudly grumbled (that's the best way that I can put it!), and it felt like the engine was going to just drop right out of the car!  I was completely terrified and drove super slow the rest of the way to work...luckily I didn't have much farther to go.  But yes, I was the person that everyone hates while trying to get to work - driving at least 10 mph UNDER the speed limit haha.  I made it to work, God willing, and was able to get on with my day.  But that really only meant that I had to figure out what to do about the car.  I could not let it go on like it was....that would just be asking for trouble!  Anyway, thanks to my amazing parents, (let's face it, I'd be living in a BOX under the bridge on town lake if it weren't for my parents' help) I will be taking the car, if it can make it, to get a brake inspection for FREE at Lamb's.  Fingers crossed for good news!!!  I'm super nervous about getting it there, but I know I can do it - just keep calm and *pray*.

However, as always, it's not 'just' the car that has me rattled today.  *pulls out list*.  No, seriously, I just pulled out my running list of "things that are broken and need to be fixed": 1. the car, obviously.  2. the dryer (the heating element went out *we think* and needs to be replaced....luckily that's a cheaper fix than the car will be!).  3. the couch - I will never be buying another piece of furniture from Ikea ever again!  4. the recliner - sadly, I believe it's on its last leg and will not be around much longer *looks for dumpster*.  Ok, so that's my list as of this morning - my brain was fried and that's all I could think of...I'm sure there's more.  Isn't there ALWAYS more?  But anyway, I have to just put my faith in Him that in His time, everything will work out - which I know it will, but some days, I break.  Today was one of those days.  I shattered into about a billion pieces.  I just cracked under the stress and pressure and "things to fix".  (they really are HEAVY, you'd crack too haha).

So, typing it all out, it doesn't seem like too much - let's face it, if this is the extent of my problems, I'm pretty lucky, huh? I admit that I am - but some days, I break. *I typed 'brake' first - you can tell my brain is still on getting the car fixed!*  I thank God for blessing me with such an amazing family and friends and a super awesome husband.  I honestly don't know where I would be without them, but luckily, I don't have to find out!  (probably under that bridge though, for real).  Luckily, the day did get a little better - but it's not over yet!  Almost done with work and then it's on to pick up Colten and head to Lamb's to get the inspection taken care of.  Praying for "not the worst case scenario"!

And on an end note:

*If you like it, then you should've put a ring on it.  Don't be mad once you see that he want it, 'cause if you like it then you should've put a ring on it.*  It's blaring in my headphones and I couldn't help but jam out! :)

Life is good.  And God is great!
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Martina said...

Some days I break too!!!! It's natural.... We are humans who get emotional sometimes... And you are right, if its not one thing its another. Same over here sometimes:)

Just like you said you have to put you're faith in God and trust that he will work it out for you!

Great post & Thanks for the follow!

Brianna said...

Thanks Martina! I really appreciate it :)

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