el-oh-vee-ee ♥

I am head over heels, truly, madly, deeply in love.  What else is there to say about that?  Oh yeah, LOTS!  Colten is absolutely the most amazing guy ever!!  He truly loves me for who I am and always looks out for what's best for "us".  I've never been with someone that has cared about me the way that he does.  And I've also never cared for anyone the way I do about him!  It's been amazing :).  Of course there are some bumps in the road here and there, but we always sit down and talk about it to figure out what the problem is and find a solution.  That's another part of what I love about our relationship...we ALWAYS talk things out.  I've been in relationships where the fighting can go on for days without any attempt for resolve.  Not with Colten.  And I love it! ♥. 

Right now, he's going through a phase I know all too well: trying to figure out exactly what you want to do with your life!  He's been back and forth about what to major in and what to do, and I've tried to be supportive through everything.  But sometimes it's really hard.  I'm stressed about what I've decided to do with my life: law, and between keeping up with my classes and making sure he keeps up with his plus now the possibility of changing his major again...it's just overwhelming sometimes.  BUT, I think we had an epiphany last night!  I finally realized that it doesn't matter how long it takes him to finish with a degree, no matter what major he chooses in the end.  I was freaking out about both of us graduating around the same time with the possibility of starting our lives together.  I was just so focused on TIME.  But last night, it hit me.  It doesn't matter how long it takes!  What was I so worried about?  Whether he finishes before me or if I finish before him, it doesn't matter!  That doesn't mean we won't end up together.  We had a long heartfelt and emotional talk about the whole thing and now he's thinking about going back to ITT to finish the degree he started working on computers (or something like that).  He then continued to tell me that he would possibly get a job working on a rig.  *Deep breath in...and out.*  It would mean the possibility of him moving away from Austin once he's done next June for work.  It would be SUPER hard on our relationship seeing as we get to see each other every day for a while now...but that doesn't mean we can't get through it.  Plus, it would mean he'd be making quite a bit of money, which I know he would love (who wouldn't love not having financial problems?!).  Anyway, I'm going to support him no matter what he decides to do or pursue.  As long as it doesn't jeopardize our relationship...which I know he wouldn't do! :) 

Whew.  That was a long time coming!  Anyway...back to the love stuff ;).  It's been eight months that we've been together, and I still get butterflies around him and get excited when he texts me or kisses my forehead.  It's the little things!  I've never cried so much in my life for being HAPPY!  It's kind of crazy!  He makes me sooo happy, which is something I haven't had in such a long time.  At first I was scared of it, but now I know better :).  We are so good for each other and we bring out the best in each other.  He really is an amazing man and I am truly blessed to get the opportunity to be with him and experience his love and give him all of the love I am able to give (which is a lot).  I'm so thankful for Colten having come into my life.  I can't stress that enough!  And I can only hope he feels the same way.

Little Updates

So, I have the online training for HEB behind me...I just have to get through two days of Checker Training and a day of Alcohol Sellers Training.  And then I can start work!! :).  But anyway.  I'm really excited about Friday!  I just got off of the phone with a potential apartment complex, and now me and Colten have an appointment to go see their two bedroom apartment that I just fell in love with when looking at the floorplan online.  Hopefully we will love it in person as well!  *fingers crossed*.  I can't wait to move.  We will have so much more space and room to actually have company and not feel so ... "shoved in a closet".  Ha.  So ... things are going great right now and fingers crossed for the future! :)

Drum Roll Please...

...I got a job! Yay!  Ok, so it's not the most amazing job on the planet, but it's perfect for what I want/need right now in my life.  I need some part time work to earn some steady income.  So, HEB answered my calling!  I applied at HEB as a cashier with hopes of getting it, considering I already have the experience from working at Wal-Mart.  Yesterday I had an interview with the front-end manager, then he took me to the Unit Director, and he took me straight to Admin to fill out some paperwork.  I received a call this morning (it had to go to voicemail because I was taking a test) but I checked it and it was Toni from Admin explaining that my background check came back good and that she wanted me to come in tomorrow if I was still interested in the position ... Yay!  So, I go in tomorrow morning at 8am to fill out the rest of my new hire paperwork and receive further information for training.  Yay (have I said that already?). :) So, I finally rejoined the workforce.  And it's about time!  Getting the extra money every week will be very helpful!  I'm super excited!  That is all. ♥.

the big C

Cancer is in the air.  Ok, not technically, but there have been deaths due to cancer in this past week that have hit close to home.  A lady that dad works with at the bank has been battling cancer for years and lost her battle on Sunday.  The funeral was today, which my dad attended.  He said there were easily a thousand people there ... she was a very loved lady!  They had cameras set up sending feed to other buildings for the overflow of people.  How crazy is that...

Another family that I know is suffering this week is one from back home.  One of my old classmate's dad lost his battle with cancer on Monday.  I'm not familiar with how long he had been fighting, but I know it was for a while.  He left behind a wife and two daughters. 

My heart goes out to these families this week because losing a loved one to Cancer is not easy.  Well, losing a loved one at all isn't easy, much less to cancer.  It really makes me take a step back and see just how much some people suffer compared to how much I feel I suffer some days.  My suffering is NOTHING compared to those individuals fighting for their lives each and every day.  I pray that the families of these recent cancer victims find strength in God's love to find healing in this hard time.  I could never even begin to imagine losing my parents or siblings, or any of my family or close friends right now.  I know death is another part of life, but it scares me and it's painful for the ones left behind to cope with.  The classmate I spoke of earlier is two years younger than me, and she lost her father.  She is a freshman in college, going through the hardships of getting accustomed to college life and the homesickness and pressures that go along with it, and now she must deal with the death of her father, to whom I know she was very close to.  It's devastating, and it breaks my heart.  I pray every day that someone out there finds a cure to this horrible disease.

It's times like this that also makes me think of the loved ones I have lost due to cancer: my aunt and my grandmother.  I didn't know my aunt very well, but that doesn't mean I don't miss her and wish that I could have had the opportunity to get to know her.  And I miss my grandmother dearly.  She was the strongest woman I have ever known and I can only wish that I become half the woman she ever was.  May they and all those who became victims of cancer rest in peace, and may their families find comfort and strength in knowing that their loved ones are no longer suffering. 


Apartment hunting!  Yep, it's that time again.  Although I still have about 5 months until my lease is up here, I have to be thinking of the future.  I'm trying to get a job (haha...not going so great), and it got me thinking...plus, Colten brought it up a few weeks ago.  We are planning to officially move in together in July.  But the thing is, once he gets the rest of his stuff in this apartment, along with all of the junk I have, we would be very crammed in this apartment.  So, we are officially looking for a new apartment.  We found one in the hill country, west of Austin, and it's awesome.  We are going to have so much space, it's exciting!  Lol.  Of course, I'm also very excited to continue living with Colten.  We are very happy together and I feel that this is the right move to make.  Anyway, hopefully we will find something we fall in love with and get going on the packing.  :)

It seems that I move every year (well, I have moved every year since I left for college).  But, at the end of every year, I'm at a different place in my life which causes me to need to move to a different apartment.  First, I moved out of the house and got a small one bedroom apartment downtown Austin to be close to UT campus.  After that year, I was ready to have some roommates, so I moved in with Randi and Chelsea.  After that year, it was time for me to get back into my own place, so I moved to where I am now.  And then Colten came along, so it's going to be time to pursue that path.  Whew!  So, there you have it.  Hopefully this next apartment will be the one I stay at for a few years at least.
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