I can honestly say that I'm at a point in my life where all of the scattered, tattered, torn, and missing puzzle pieces are coming together to complete the puzzle of my life.
I have never been more confident or excited to start a new semester of school. I finally feel like I have a major that I'm supposed to be in to earn a degree that I actually want. January 19th can't come soon enough. Yes, I know I will be overwhelmed with my law classes, but that's just because it will be completely new material to me that I've never seen or dealt with before. Once I get the hang of it, I will be fine. Bring. It. On.
I also feel like my family life has been super amazing this past year and a half or so. Every family has its ups and downs, but I know I can truly count on every member of my family to be there for me, and they have! No matter what time of day it is, I know that whoever I call will answer the phone and be there for me. My family is amazing, and they are my rock. They help keep me grounded when I begin to have unrealistic dreams and goals. They keep me close to reality, which helps me see who I truly am and where I'm going with my life. And I couldn't ask for anything more from them. I am extremely blessed to have the perfect family. :)
As for the romance puzzle piece, it's PERFECT and fits in so well!! Colten is the best thing that has ever happened to me. He's everything I've ever dreamed of for a significant other. I agree that things might have moved quickly in the beginning, but no matter what happened, we stuck it out and got through every obstacle together, without much arguing and bickering. I'm a girl and have the tendency to let my frustrations out on whoever is closest to me, which is most often Colten, but he just comes up to me, puts his arm around me, and tells me that everything will be ok and just to breathe. He understands me so well that it's hard to believe sometimes. I've honestly never cried so much in my life because of how happy I am! He makes me extremely happy, and that's really what counts. I know that I can count on him for anything, and he knows the same is true for him. We are always looking out for each other, and that's what makes our relationship true and lasting. We truly care about each other and want the best for each other. He also loves me just the way I am. I'm so used to being with someone that is constantly trying to change me or "critique" me in some way or another, but not Colten. He never puts me down or brings my self confidence down. He does just the opposite. He always tells me that I'm beautiful, even if I feel bad that day and that I couldn't look any worse. No matter what I do or how I dress, the look that he gets in his eyes when he looks at me is breathtaking. And I'm so lucky to have him in my life! I do my best to make him feel the same way, and I'm constantly telling him that I love him exactly the way he is...I just hope he believes me. We are learning and growing together, and I love every minute of it! I always thought I would never want to live with a guy before I married him, but having Colten by my side every day has been amazing. I couldn't have dreamed of anything more than he gives and does for me. I was so wrong about so many things in my life. I never knew how good I could have it. And I have it damn good! I'm excited to see what our future holds for us and I'm ready for it, whatever it is!
As for religion in my life, I've unfortunately and stupidly put it on the back burner, but I have decided to change that. I plan on being more active in my faith and pursuing what God has in store for me. I know I've been through a lot of rough times, but I put completely trust in Him and I know that He wouldn't put me through it if I couldn't handle it. I'm very excited to pursue my faith further and have a closer relationship with Him.
So, as for the puzzle that is my life, I can definitely say that it's coming together quite nicely. Things may seem horrible and unable to be fixed or helped in any way, but there's always that light at the end of the tunnel. I'm excited about my life and I can't wait to continue living it to the fullest each day! :)
And all I have left to say about that is...
...it's about damn time!
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